I agree whole heartedly that the hardest thing is waiting and the NOT knowing. Is this thing going to take my hubby in a year, 15 years? what?
Our first visit to the dr' post RP was to find that my hubbie's PSA was already 2.3. Radiation was no longer an option. We were shocked. WHAT! Worse case scenario he was going to need radiation. Now we find out they are treating it palliatively with hormone therapy as it can never really be cured. We were shocked. One thing this journey has done is taken us by surprise time after time after time as my hubby feels fine! How can he have something so sinister happening in his body when he's feeling so good.
Well he has started hormone therapy and the side effects have been fairly minimal. Fatigue is the worse side effect. We have adjusted to the news and are CHOOSING to live each day with joy. It tends to make things a little sweeter for sure. He figures he is doing everything he can to fight this thing but he is not going to allow his days to be consumed by this disease.
If laughter and loves cures or creates remission, we are well on our way. Oh, there are moments when I get anxious and scared and I notice he will get moody, but for the most part, enjoy life and live what we have!
Best wishes. I am a person that has always wanted to know and control my future, I have no choice but to roll with this! Another life lesson.