I have no idea what you are going thru but I feel for you and just had to write. I just wanted you to know that I'm thinking about you and your husband. As you can see from our signature, my husband has gone thru a completely different experience and things are coming along. But I remember when my dad was very sick with heart trouble, colon cancer and an anyeresum (sp). My parents had been together forever and had the greatest love for each other. Young at heart and full of life. But when dad got sick it was so hard to understand him. He was not the same to mom no matter how hard he tried. My mom was so unhappy at the way life turned out for them. She felt guilty about feeling this way but we could all see that her love hadn't changed just her frustration in what the cards dealt. Daddy was sad that he wasn't who he used to be and in turn took it out on mom and the rest of us. Not always but it happened frequently. He was so angry. Mentally he just couldn't handle it and would either not talk or just yell. He was a wonderful man, don't get me wrong.
I just want you to realize whatever it is you feel, is so so so normal. No body really wants to talk about it cause they feel guilty but don't! You are human and let yourself feel things. Find someone to talk to if you can that has been something similar. It doesn't have to be prostate but maybe another wife that has gone thru something. Its so good to get it out.
I hope I haven't overstepped my bounds on here. Just worried about you. If you ever want to vent, my email is posted and you can feel free to write.
Age 51 Kent
January 08 PSA 5.2 round of antibiotics went to 4.3
February 08 anpther round of antibiotics went to 4.2
March 17,08 had biopsy, 2 days later told cancer was on
one entire side of prostate.
Doctor thinks its best to get the whole prostate with Perineal Prostatectomy.
Surgery scheduled for this Thursday April 10th.
Cindy (the wife!!)
Surgery preformed and doing great. Only took 1 1/2 hours. Will know in two weeks about pathology report. Surgeon feels he he got all cancer and confined to prostate. Both nerves were spared.
Home 4-11 - incision looks completley healed on the outside by 4-25
Cath out 4-22 dripping some
Cancer confined to one side of prostate.
Cialis 5 mg at night to start
Outlook very positive!!