When I came here, I seriously believe that this site prepared me, and pulled me through the toughest time of my life, and it still is pulling. I continue to benefit from the caring and loving support of so many members. As a member, things are great here. As a Moderator they haven't always worked out quite as well. In light of the fact that so many of you are my friends, and that so many of you I have experience to help with, I have requested to be simply a member. As long as I carry the Forum Moderator tag I am finding it increasingly difficult to maintain the support that I need as a man with advanced prostate cancer. There are many times as Moderator that I have felt anguish and discontent directed at me, and many times I tried to let it go. But it's time for me to move on now. I've had to hang in the balance my dedication to be fair to all here against my friendships in the membership. As a member, I don't have to do that. Quite frankly, it brings a tear to my eyes, that I somehow have brought this on myself. Please don't hold any members in any way responsible for my decision. It is my own and I have felt this way for some time.
I have a request though.
The Moderators here have a very difficult job to do. I highly believe that unless you've tried it, you don't understand what they feel. They are members just like you and me. They can't do this job to everyones satisfaction. That's not even possible. If I ever made a statement that violated a rule, it should be brought to my attention, and if I didn't fix it, the Mods should excercise the rules. The best tool a moderator has is your email addresses. It provides an opportunity to take the discussion offline and present the possibility for reconsideration from the poster. In any case, I have listed the rules link below. If you haven't already, please read them, and don't be upset when a moderator simply has to apply them. The Mods are people, and they may try to overlook them from time to time. There are allowable exceptions. And there is human error. It's always a tough call, and it affects the moderator many times personally. So along with your feelings, please consider what they feel, too.
A Very Big Thank You.
You are my friends and I really may need you in the future. I hope I can just be a member with you all again.
Age 46 (44 when Dx)
Pre-op PSA was 19.8
Surgery on Feb 16, 2007 @ The City of Hope
Post-Op Pathology: Gleason 4+3=7, positive margins, Stage pT3b (Stage III)
HT began in May, '07 with Lupron and Casodex 50mg
IMRT radiation for 38 Treatments ending August 3, '07
Current PSA (May 9 '08): <0.1
I will continue HT until May '09.
Years in Remission (3/23/07): 1
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Prostate Cancer Forum Moderator