Ken & All
I just came from our standard Thursday nite dinner together here at the UF Proton Institute (Jacksonville). I am not sure what my emotions are anymore. I am delighted that my test are coming back good and I am well into my treatment with only 10 left. Tonight most everyone was laughing and joking about all the things to do and the atmosphere was like a vacation or cruise. A lot of Proton patients refer to their treatment as a Proton vacation. You would never have known that anyone in our group had cancer if you did not know any of them. That is where my emotions seem to come into play. It was all I could do to keep from saying how dang lucky we are as my mind continually goes to guys like Walt, Les (Gordy), Tony, Dave, Dale, Biker and many I know I am leaving out here. The tears are hard to hold back sometimes. So life is whatever it is. I always had a saying that life was choices and we had to live with the choices we made. Well, how the heck can I say that when it comes to this disease that inflicts us all here.
darn this diease and the Hormone therapy.
I love all you guys and ladies here.
Even if I am a lucky one and becomes cured I will never again be the same as before. I know the feelings of fear, frustration, and yes even joy but I can't seem to forget all of those who battle against cancer, whether it be prostate and some other form.
To me the feelings that may be related to Hormone therapy are a small price to pay for success. I pray that God does not allow me to ever again sit on the side lines and do nothing but to do whatever little thing I can do to make life a little better for those who dwell in this battle arena.
Richard aka smilingoldcoot
Retired USAF Richard & Debbie on The Shores of Toledo Bend Lake Louisiana
Biospy 1/10/08 Gleason 10, Stage T1C 8 of 12 samples positive all Less Than 5%
Jan & Feb & Mar all tests clear
MD Anderson = No surgery and No Proton only Hormone and IMRT
Contacted with Loma Linda and UFPTI in FL
Started Treatment at the U of Florida Proton Therapy Institute in April 2008
May 2, 2008 LUPRON & Casodex
IMRT to started 5/27/2008 Will get 42 treatments 25 IMRT and then 17 Proton
Turn Stumbling Blocks into Steping Stones and Keep Smiling