Great Post, Dale,
But first I'm going to reach out to another Tony. Buddy, you are not alone. You are very close to the initial shock and soon you will see that you will have some great days ahead. I remember my first couple months like it was yesterday. I couldn't sleep, I was scared at times, and I still am. But not like I was before treatment. At one point I simply decided to just keep on keepin' on. I will reflect again on October 3. That is the day my PSA was near 20, and I have come a long way since. I know the members that have been here when I came on will agree.
There is life after cancer. I don't know if you saw the Last Lecture by Randy Pausch. I am glad I saw it when I did ~ still in my first year after being diagnosed. One of the best points he made was from the characters on Winnie the Pooh. Are you a Tigger or an Eeyore? What a great point. I'm a Tigger. Energetic and outgoing. No time to be down trodden and negative. Rest in peace Randy.
I have always been positive and kind of adventureous. I've always had a good paying job, I had married a great lady, and I've been close to my family values and faith. But this cancer thing did change my life ~ for the better. I spend a lot less "me" time and I recognize that I am quite vulnerable. So what to do? Pay it forward! I am a member of many advocacy's for cancer, mainly prostate cancer but I also lost my mother suddenly in March to cancer, and dad's PSA is borderline. So joining the fight against cancer was not just treating it for me. I still make the time to get out in my RV and enjoy the beautiful scenes in the Southwest, but visiting fellow HW members is even more wonderful. And before, you would never find me in a soup line helping the needy. I encourage you all to do that at least once. To see the faces of people who thank you from their hearts will touch you.
Then there is my wife. Today is our anniverary, #12. After church today we are doing what we always do. Breakfast together, watch some football, and tonight dinner at my favorite place (Remember it Jetguy?). I will also make time to help others with this hideous disease at any of several sites. I love my wife more than ever. Through diagnosis, surgery, and during HT and RT, she has stood by me. ED has done nothing to separate us. In fact, we are more intimate that ever.
Life is good!