Glad you are doing better today. At this point I have little to worry about, but I too, suddenly will have days that are just hard to keep from crying. My wife is always upbeat and says not to worry! Ha! I am one of the world's best worriers so that is not easy to do.....
Kept venting here. We understand! I see you speak with Tony. He certainly is an inspiration to all of us. The ones of us that have been there....done that.... need to support each other. I often find at work when someone asks where I have been and I say PCa surgery, they often will respond with "Oh that kind is no big deal." Well I realize it may be better than others, but it definitely is a big deal.
If you ever need another buddy to talk to, drop me an email and I'll get you a phone number. I don't have the experience Tony and some of the rest have, but I do have a compassionate ear to lend.
Blessing to you for a peaceful and healing weekend and a happy holiday season,