There's no part of me that thinks you are dumb about anything. I was actually complimenting you above, it may have come out butt backwards and for that I am sorry. I am very left-handed and always think and talk in reverse order it seems, lol. I only meant, when I first saw your original posts here, I too, like Dale, thought that you were coming across angry or hostile for reasons that I, myself didnt understand. I told you, I read everything you write, and I check out your leads and links, for my own learning process, and to be able to help others in the future.
This is my 4th time with cancer since 2000, I am not an expert, my only motivation is to survive as long as I can humanly do, to be with my wife and family.
The longer I read your stuff, what I meant above, was that I feel your passion in your words, the fight in those words, that is not a bad thing. In my eyes, I like passion. I don't care what anyone believes, as long as they really believe in it, and are passionate about it. So even awkwardly said, it was meant to be a compliment.
I agree, there is no one correct way or protocal for dealing with PC. As I often say here, too many variable, too many options, too many life choices and personal choices.
Right or wrong, I was convinced that in my case, with my stats, and my Psa velocity, that surgery first followed by the possibility of radiation as an ace in my pocket (not an option I hever hope to use) was best for me. That's all I mean. And for me, I hope, hope completely, that I picked correctly, because there is no reversing my choice. Its over with.
Even in the cot, in the pre-op, minutes before going into surgery, I discussed with my wife, that I might like to abort the operation and re-group. It was my decision, but I closed my eyes and re-thought the facts at hand and the logic, and what I had learned, and decided it didnt make sense to abort and continue to watch my psa skyrocket and lose the change of containment, which my post pathology seems to indicate.
I don't have a problem with you, no one should be afraid of reading anything, whether they agree or not.
Age 56, 56 at DX, PSA 7/7 5.8, 7/8 12.3, 9/8 14.9, 10/8 16.4
3rd Biopsy 9-2008 Positive 7 of 7 cores positive, 40 - 90%, G 4+3 & 3+4
Open RP surgery 11/14/8, Non-nerve sparing, 4 days hospital, staples out 11/24/8, Catheter out on 12/15/8. Stopped flowing, new catheter put in 12/16/08, Catheter out 12/29/08. Emergency room put in Catheter # day 45, 1/5/9 - Cath #3 out, dr. did cycloscope, saw potential blockage, put in Catheter #4, 1/13/9 - removed blockage, put in Cath #5, 1/19/9 -out
Post-surgery Pathlogy Report:Gleason 3+4=7, pT2c, 42 grams, tumor 20%, Contained in capsular, clear margins, clear lymph nodes
First PSA Post Surgery Scheduled now for 2/9/9