Todd, you just keep getting off your chest. That's one of the bennies for being here! You are not going crazy, you are not imagining things. I don't know anything about the casodex, so not sure how that factors in. The waiting 3 more weeks alone will make you feel bonkers. I am one week to the day of knowing my first post surgery psa, and I am 99.99% sure it will be fine, but it gets under my skin just waiting, I want to know! Hmn, smoking pot, that's probably better as a don't ask don't tell kind of thing. Valium, hmn, you could ask for tranzene, about 8 bucks wal-mart generic, the 7.5 mg once a day is good for keeping from feeling on edge all the time if you are looking for a medicinal cure.
Do what you do best, brother, just keep hanging in there and being the inspiration you here for the rest of us. Big job, sure, but you earned it. And on your last point, you are in no way a moron, lol, hope you were kidding there. We are here for you, pile it on and camp here a while.
David in SC
Age 56, 56 at DX, PSA 7/7 5.8, 7/8 12.3
3rd Biopsy 9/8 Positive 7 of 7 cores pos, 40-90%, Gleason 7
Open RP surgery 11/14/8, Non-nerve sparing, 4 days hospital, staples out 11/24/8, 5th cath out on 1/19/9
Post-surgery Pathlogy Report:Gleason 3+4=7, pT2c, 42 grm, tumor 20%, Contained in capsular, clear margins, clear lymph nodes
First PSA Post Surgery 2/9/9