Shane, you have a reason to feel sad, to feel tired, and yes, to feel mad. Sounds like you have a really wonderful family there, that, I am certain, motivates you to keep fighting the fights you have been enduring. Having a wonderful wife on the other end, makes a big, big difference in handling these difficult situations.
Your mental and emotional well being needs to be factored into your general health picture. You say you are a "mule", and that can be a good thing, but even a good Mule can get wore into the ground.
It's one of my pet peeves, that even with good doctors/nurses/other medical staff, they may be very good at the treatments they give you, or the meds may work very well for what they were designed, but little, if any attention is ever given or considered to how you are feeling inside your head as you go through all you go through.
I only wish you the best, the courage to continue the fights you are fighting, I wish the best to your wife and family, its not easy on them either, of course. That bothered me a lot when I have been going through medical crisises. But such it is.
Keep with us here, I hope we can be a true comfort to you.
David in SC
56, 56 at DX, PSA
7/7 5.8, 7/8 12.3
3rd Biopsy 9/8 Positive 7 of 7 cores pos, 40-90%, Gleason 7
Open RP surgery 11/14/8, Right nerves saved, 4 days hospital, staples out 11/24/8, 5th cath out on 1/19/9
Post-surgery Pathlogy Report:Gleason 3+4=7, pT2c, 42 grm, tumor 20%, Contained in capsular, clear margins, clear lymph nodes
First PSA Post Surgery 2/9 .05