Your fear is well understood and respected. If you didn't have any, I would worry about you. Your surgery will be soon upon you, and then you will be on the other side, the recovery side. Hopefully, all your cancer is contained and your surgeon will get it. Then when you are on the mend, you will feel better knowing that you did what you could. Then you too, will anxiously await your first Zero, and we will rejoice with you. You have made your primary treatment choice, and now you just have to wait patiently for the 26th to come and go. I remember how nervous I was the last couple of week before surgery, though I kept myself busy, it was hard not to think about it often. This is a very normal way to feel at this point. We are with you, and hoping nothing but good results for you, brother.
David in SC
Age 56, 56 at DX, PSA 7/7 5.8, 7/8 12.3,9/8 14.5
3rd Biopsy Sept 08: Positive 7 of 7 cores, 40-90%, Gleason 7, 4+3
Open RP surgery 11/14/8, Right nerves spared, 4 days hospital, staples out 11/24/8, 5th cath out on 1/19/9
Post-surgery Pathlogy Report:Gleason 3+4=7, pT2c, 42 grm, tumor 20%, Contained in capsular, clear margins, clear lymph nodes
First PSA Post Surgery 2/9 .05, 6 month on 5/9