I wish and hope each and every one of you the best , sitting here this morning with my usual cup of coffee
looking out my window at another sunrise .
I had my surgery Nov 18 of 2008 , I am dry finaly except for a sneeze every now and then and feeling good about that but some things have been lost and well that has broken the marrige as of this morning .
I have been on heavy med for a bad back , I take 4 40 mg Oxycontin and 6 5mg/325mg Percocet a day for the pain , was taking 100 mg Viagra for the other but that never did any good .
Since the surgery and well my buddy not working being turned down from ssi and now the falling apart of the marrige I am some what at a loss so to say , I do not know , hell dont know why I am here guess I just need to talk and get it off my chest with someone that is in the same boat as me so to say with the aaftermath of the surgery and so forth .The ssi and pain from my back I can live with have been but the loss feeling , passion and well the wanting to is killing me, after this surgery I have lost the erge to want sex so to say is that usual or is it just me? I am the type of person that has always ben there for others and not use to the one needing help I am at a loss and do not kknow where or who to turn to .