Welcome back and nice to see you. From your stats you are doing well with the PC, and it sounds like your wife is doing good too considering.
No shame in depression. There is a thin line between normal depression and clinical depression, which in turn can turn to Major Depressive Disorder. I have been there, done that. If you are not seeing a dr. for the depression, you need to, you could start with your GP if you have a good one. Sometimes, depression comes on at the weirdest times, like you said, when everything is going well. It is still basically a chemical in-balance, triggered by lots of things like stress, and post-stress.
You said you are on meds, are they helping? If you don't mind, what do they have you on so far. What has worked well for me in the past, and my wife currently using it, is Lexapro or you can save a lot of money by using the older version Celexa. They work well with mild depression and/or panic disorder. The only side affect, is it will make you almost forget about
sex. Doesnt suppress the ability, just the desire. But there are any number of good meds.
If you are beyond just meds, then meeting with a good counseler along with the meds might make more sense, in case the depression is rooted to something else going on.
The worse thing, and men are the worse at this, is to try to macho your way out of depression, or to tough it out, that was my big mistake several years ago, and all it did was deepen the problem. I have been all all meds for that for over 1 1/2 years now, and feel much better about
I hope you only the best, and if you need the help, get the help. I know where you are coming from, and depression is the silent killer sometime. A tormented mind is no fun. Let me know how you are doing.
David in sC
56, 56 at DX, PSA
7/7 5.8, 7/8 12.3,9/8 14.5
3rd Biopsy Sept 08: Positive 7 of 7 cores, 40-90%, Gleason 7, 4+3
Open RP surgery 11/14/8, Right nerves spared, 4 days hospital, staples out 11/24/8, 5th cath out on 1/19/9
Post-surgery Pathlogy Report:Gleason 3+4=7, pT2c, 42 grm, tumor 20%, Contained in capsular, clear margins, clear lymph nodes
First PSA Post Surgery 2/9 .05, 6 month on 5/9