To be honest I'm not completely sure I have damage. I don't have scar tissue according to the penile doppler and a uro's exam and that is the only test they would do. I was told it was in my head an recommended to see a sex therapist. However, its been two years since its worked like it should. It feels different. Its hard to explain but it has a different phyhsical appearance and feel. It started off always being cold to the touch and smaller than it would ever be after swimming in the coldest water. However, at first it would still function erect, and then when that stopped it would still function erect only with viagra or cialis but then shrink down immediately to an embarrasing size right afterwards, and now nothing works. It seems firm in a flaccid state. Perhaps whatever I did caused prolonged lack of blood which damaged something, or maybe I damaged my suspensory ligament or something because it has no stability at all. Its become very veiny, unelastic, painful and very "tight" all the time. Every vein feels hard and the corpus cavernosum doesnt even feel like spongy tissue anymore it just feels like a large hard vein, even when flaccid. I don't get spontaneous erections, it never hangs like it used to, i could go on and on with symptoms but at this point I don't think its going to help. I've seen multiple uro's and all just feel it and say they think its fine. I know its not in my head though I've found many threads online with ppl with the same symptoms who don;t know why its happening to them whose symptoms only get worse. I've finally lost hope of it ever getting better. A VED which I am getting is my last shot.
No I have not tried injections just cialis, viagra, and pt-141. My penis will get semi-erect, but it will not stay erect, is smaller, a different shape, not firm, hard and inflexible in a bad way. It kind of feels like its trying to push blood in, but the tunica will not let it expand.
But yeah, I will go to whatver surgeon wherever as long as he's the best. Right now I'm thinking of Dr. Eid, in NY, who has performed over 3000 of these which I think is the most in the world. He's apparently the best of the best but if anyone has any other recommendations please let me know.
And yes I hope to hear from Art as I've seen him on many forums and have read i think almost every post of his as I've done countless hours of online research over the years.
As far as it being discreet, could a girl tell i had an implant? I know it would seem like I have a third testical but if I kept her away from my testicals somehow, could she tell then?
As far as loss of length, I could deal with 1/2 maybe 3/4 inch loss and long as I kept girth but still if I could get that back with a suspensory surgery than would be ideal.
Lastly, and most importantly, what steps should I take now to try to get this done. Keep going from uro to uro until one says yes? My current uro is saying that I am too young to even consider it, but I think thats more of a reason for me to have it. I'm missing way more sexual experiences being young, attractive, and very social than if i were older anyways. And seeing how its only gotten worse over 2+ years, I don't see it getting better. I can't keep missing these experiences I feel like I've been robbed me of so much social growth by having to miss out on so much. When I go home with a girl from a bar or party I have to pretend to pass out drunk right before sex. I have a girl who is in love with me and I like her even more but have to reject her constantly because I know we can;t have a relationship in this state. Its caused me so much stress and pain I honestly can't keep going like this I need to do something. I need to find some way to get one of these put in and try to be as normal as I can. My goal is to find some way to have one of these put in this summer before Junior year of college so at least half of college can be normal. Well I am rambling this isnt really helping anything so ill stop that but I just need to get all the steps to getting one of these in. Like once I'm approved to have one by a uro, how long will I have to wait for the surgery?
thanks again for your help everyone