Well, thought I would pop in for a quicky visit. I go in at 0930 tommorow for the blood draw for the special PSA test my dr. ordered. I have to wait till next Monday to sit with him and find out the news. This has been the worse PSA anxiety time I have experienced so far ,its not like its just another test that comes and goes. If it has moved up any from the .10 mark six weeks ago, then it means reaccurance, and so soon after surgery. The game plan is to move me along to an oncologist and radiation facility. There is that micro chance the 6 month PSA read was wrong or a micro spike, and this one will be better, but my logic and luck doesn't tend to go in that direction. Would love to be proven wrong on this one.
I know there is nothing special about me or my case, I am just one of many here, my life isn't worth any more or any less than any other man, this I know in my heart.
I thought the surgery would do it, at least for several years out, the pathology report was so squeaky clean, I am a Stage 2, not a 3 or 4, so my mind can't reconcile why this is happening so soon after surgery.
I am fully continent, and as most of you regulars know, I was blessed with no-ED after surgery. Will all this gain be lost after I go through salvage RT? Don't know either, had to have made such good progress, and then lose it all. Then I think, if I need RT this fast, is it really going to work or do me any good in the long run?
Just airing fellow PC guys, it is what it is, after all this time, parts of me still feel like I did something wrong to make the PC happen, and if so, I don't honestly know what I could have done differently.
It will be a long wait till next Monday, I could force the result before then, but its not my style, I am too compliant with my drs, and knowing this week won't change a thing with the ultimate results.
Still plan to be back here full time soon. I just have to know what is really going on here with me.
David in SC
Age 56, 56 at DX, PSA 7/7 5.8, 7/8 12.3,9/8 14.5
3rd Biopsy Sept 08: Positive 7 of 7 cores, 40-90%, Gleason 7, 4+3
Open RP surgery 11/14/8, Right nerves spared, 4 days hospital, staples out 11/24/8, 5th cath out on 1/19/9
Post-surgery Pathlogy Report:Gleason 3+4=7, pT2c, 42 grm, tumor 20%, Contained in capsular, clear margins, clear lymph nodes
First PSA Post Surgery 2/9 .05, 5/9 .10 doubled in 3 months, new test in six weeks, then possibly off for salvage radiation