So that you can hear it from the horse's mouth (or mule in this case), I asked Peter of HW to remove me for now from the moderator's position. I am under too much personal pressure right now to feel effective in the role. I appreciate dearly the opportunity to have been entrusted with the role, perhaps one day things will be better and I can try again.
I have no problem being neutral and "fair", having played that role for 30 years in business as an even minded mediator in legal proceedings and general negotiations.
Here, my heart is heavy sometimes, for all those that are new here, knowing that they need our "services". My heart is also overwhelmed with my own situation. Depsite overcoming other major medical maladies in my life, including 3 other bouts of a rare and potenially malignant cancer, the entire process of PC for me has been tough, more mentally then physically.
We are fighting a very contrary and evasive enemy. Normal protocals and rules don't cut it with PC, too many variables, too many contradictions, too many inconsistent outcomes.
I will continue to be here and posted as I see I must. Sometimes, and those that have known me for awhile, its best if I can just post from the heart, and not the head, and sometimes it's hard to do that in the moderator role.
I really love this place, will always be a place in my heart for HW. Just being here has helped me immensely, and improved at least a portion of the quality of my life while dealing with this wicked cancer.
Not going anywhere, just returning to my normal role, aggervating as it may be to some of you sometimes. lol.
My best to all my brethren,
David in South Carolina
Age 56, 56 at DX, PSA 7/7 5.8, 7/8 12.3,9/8 14.5
3rd Biopsy Sept 08: Positive 7 of 7 cores, 40-90%, Gleason 7, 4+3
Open RP surgery 11/14/8, Right nerves spared, 4 days hospital, staples out 11/24/8, 5th cath out on 1/19/9
Post-surgery Pathlogy Report:Gleason 3+4=7, pT2c, 42 grm, tumor 20%, Contained in capsular, clear margins, clear lymph nodes
First PSA Post Surgery 2/9 .05, 5/9 .10, 6/9 .11, July 13 - meet with radiation oncologist