Special Note to Ed C:
Its funny that you mentioned the term "defective" in referring to yourself. When I am hurting and or depressed about
my current plight, I have often told my wife that I don't understand why she wants to hang around me, because I am defective. As a nurse, she sees much worse on a daily patient, including at least 1-3 deaths a week at her facility, so she assures me that I am not.
When you don't pee normal anymore, or have the ED problems that many have here, when you don't have your former energy and endurance, when you have severe mood swings, when you are always fighting psa anixety, etc, it's easy to feel less a man, or at least a normal man. We, myself included, forget about
our good traits and attributes. That's when one of my adult children will say something out of the clear blue that lets me know that I am still the same dad in their eye. It's so d*** hard sometime dealing with this hellish PC, but we all do, and we get by day by day by day, and not to sound lame, but life goes on, with or without us.
All we can do is to be thankful for what we do have, work with what we have been given, and do all best in our new altered states because of PC. Easier said than done? Yes, but I try to do that, and I am sure you all do too.
David in SC
57, 56 at DX, PSA
7/7 5.8, 7/8 12.3,9/8 14.5
3rd Biopsy Sept 08: Positive 7 of 7 cores, 40-90%, Gleason 7, 4+3
Open RP surgery 11/14/8, Right nerves spared, 4 days hospital, staples out 11/24/8, 5th cath out on 1/19/9
Pathlogy Report:Gleason 3+4=7, pT2c, 42 grm, tumor 20%, Contained in capsule, one post. margin, clear lymph nodes
2009 PSA 2/9 .05, 5/9 .10, 6/9 .11, 8/11 ?
Lastest 7/13 met with Rad. Oncl, considering options, 7/20 Catheter #6 after complete blockage, scarring closed up bladder neck, again