You all are wonderful people!
I would like to thank you all individually but I will use a general thank you from the bottom of my heart. As best and conservative as this Christian boy can get, I will respond one question:
Nature was the recipe I guess. There was no program to get things kick started. My loss of libido was so intense that I have had no desire to even attempt anything for two plus years. Without the details of what we would try to do, simply nothing worked. Recent months I started seeing some signs that I was not dead yet down there. Mornings down there was showing a sign of slight inflation. I started filling prescript
ions of Cialis in May, and took a few, but again, no desire meant no results. Because I knew we were going to stop the hormonal therapy, I thought it wise to "stock up" with what my insurance would cover (6 per month) in ED medications. I am still on the HT until September, so I can only attribute these changes to physical healing and devine intervention. This experience was out of the blue.
For those who don't understand how hormone
therapy can affect us, let my testimony stand for what I dealt with. HT leads to loss of libido. Loss of libido leads to total ED. HT can cause depression in two ways. No testosterone leads to metabolism changes that affect our minds and bodies. Combine this with total ED and now depression is a very real enemy for the guys on HT. Many don't get it, but many do and it is debilitating. I suffered it last summer and I had to address it. But I have found my peace living with HT, ED, and I remain hopeful that this is a good sign as to how things will be once my T levels return to normal.
I have traveled in that boat you are sailing in. There is hope. I'll call you tomorrow...I love you my friend...
Age 47 (44 when Dx)
Pre-op PSA was 19.8 : Surgery at The City of Hope on February 16, 2007
Geason 4+3=7, Stage pT3b, N0, Mx
Positive Margins (PM), Extra Prostatic Extension (EPE) : Bilateral Seminal vesicle invasion (SVI)
HT began in May, '07 with Lupron and Casodex 50mg (2 Year ADT)
IMRT radiation for 38 Treatments ending August 3, '07
Current PSA (May 11, 2009): <0.1