Charlie, welcome here, glad to have you. If you are still venting anger about
your situation, taking it out on the difference and validity between a PSA of .01 and .03 is a terrible waste of your resources and efforts. The real standard is that after your surgery, is that your PSa should always be <.10. When you get into sensitive and ultra sensitive PSA testing, there is too much plus or minus going on all the time. Testing difference, who did the test that day, minute differences in you from day to day, even the tolerance within the testing procedure. Now is you were .01, 3 months later .05, 3 months later .08, etc. That might be a genuine upward trend.
You are a 70 year old man, you went through the surgery, you either are dry or almost dry, and you had two statisitcal zeros in a while, I would say you have a lot to rejoice with.
Everyone is different, but you should have long been over the anger part. There is no one or nothing to be angry at. You didn't do anything to make the prostate cancer happen. God didn't single you out for punishment if you are a religious man. Definitely a case of it rains on the just and unjust a like.
In my area just this weekend, a 23 year old boy was killed on his motorcycle. Not his fault, wore a helmet, car ran a red light and nailed him dead. Just 23, that is something to be angry about
. He's dead and will never get to live his life.
What will help, stick around us, watch and learn from those that really have the PC hard, the advanced men with advanced cases, and see what some of the others deal with day to day. Contribute a little of your time. The best way to help yourself with this misplaced anger is to help someone else.
Not fussing at you, my new friend, just want you to accept what was put in your life. Trust me, brother, none of us want to deal with this, the treatments, the side effects.
Its time to enjoy the things you like to do, and can still do.
David in South Carolina
57, 56 at DX, PSA
7/7 5.8, 7/8 12.3,9/8 14.5
3rd Biopsy Sept 08: Positive 7 of 7 cores, 40-90%, Gleason 7, 4+3
Open RP surgery 11/14/8, Right nerves spared, 4 days hospital, staples out 11/24/8, 5th cath out on 1/19/9
Pathlogy Report:Gleason 3+4=7, pT2c, 42 grm, tumor 20%, Contained in capsule, one post. margin, clear lymph nodes
2009 PSA 2/9 .05, 5/9 .10, 6/9 .11, 8/9 .16
Lastest 7/13 met with Rad. Oncl, considering options, 7/20 Catheter #6 after complete blockage, 8/14 met with Rad Oncl, still talking option, 8/18 - had laser scope surgery to clear blockage, now on Catheter #7