Well, Mel, give you credit. In your own words, you described accurately how most of dealt with where you are at right now. You are right, a roller coaster of ups and downs with your feelings and emotions. Not asking this to be nosy, but do you have someone in your life to help you through this, i.e. spouse, domestic partner, children, real close friends?
Even with a good wife, who happens to be a nurse, my adult age children close by, it was still hard going through all of this journey so far. I really feel for anyone that life's circumstance make them do this alone.
You are right about
the job part. If you have a busy job that you love, you work it as long as you can. It distracts your mind from obsessing about
pc and your future with it. I was and am, unemployed the entire time I have been dealing with PC, its rough, as you have endless time on your hands, and too much time to think about
things. Different kind of poison I think.
Your thought process tells me you are on the right track. For starters, stay with us here at HW, keep learning, I think you know by now our support is the real thing. Real friendships are being made here, I will testify to that first hand.
When you have any negative feelings, just type them out here, they will be read, and they will be understoon.
My best to you.
David in SC
57, 56 dx, PSA: 7/07 5.8, 7/08 12.3, 9/08 14.5, 10/08 16.33rd Biopsy
: 9/08 - 7/7 Positive, 40-90% Cancer, Gleason 4+3Open RP:
11/08, Rht nerves saved, 4 days in hospt, on catheters for 63 days, 5th one out 1/09Path Rpt
: Gleason 3+4, pT2c, 42g, 20% cancer, 1 pos margin
Incontinence: 1 Month ED: Non issue at any point post surgery
Post Surgery PSA: 2/09 .05,5/09 .1, 6/09 .11. 8/09 .16
Latest: 7/9 met 2 rad. oncl, 7/9 cath #6 - blockage, 8/9 2nd corr surgery, 8/9 cath #7 out 38 days, 9/9 - met 3rd rad. oncl., mapped 9/9, 10/1 - 3rd corr. surgery - SP cath/hard dialation, 10/5 - began IMRT SRT - 39 sess/72 gys cath #8 33 days, 11/2- SP Cath #9 in place