Believe me, your panic is understandable. This is not a pleasant journey.
For me, I was a basket case for a day or two. But I quickly threw myself into researching this disease and learning everything I could. HW is a great source. I never hesitate to ask questions here.
You will find that some folks are a tad predictable and they have a particular ax to grind. But that's fine. They have a lot to contribute. There are enough responses to questions so overall you can get a good and accurate answer and draw your own conclusions. Also, READ.
There are some good books (I like the ones from Walsh and Strum -- I don't have the titles here at the moment).
More importantly, you will find that your emotions will calm down as you learn more. For me, after maybe a few days, there was kind of a tipping point, where I regained my equilibrium. Also, when I finally made a treatment decision, I became a lot more relaxed.
I'm sure I will start to "unravel" as we get closer to surgery, but that's to be expected.
Mel (surgery minus 3 weeks and counting)
63 years old
PSA-- 3/08--2.90; 8/09--4.01; 11/09--4.19 (Free PSA 24%), this after 45 days on cipro! DREs have always been normal.
History of BPH/prostatitis. PCA-3 test: 75.9 (bad news, guaranteeing I have to do....): Biopsy on 11/30/09. Result of biopsy:
5 out of 12 cores positive. Gleason 4+3. More specifically: 2 cores were 3+3 (one 5% and the other 30%) on one side. On the other side:2 cores are 4+3 (5%)--1 core 3+4 (30%) no peri-neural invasion. prostate is 45 grams. Stage: T1C
REVISED BIOPSY REPORT: The previous was read by Umich. Slides were then sent to Dr. Menon at Ford Hospital. Here is their report (much better) -- changes in bold print below:
5 out of 12 cores positive. Gleason 3+4. More specifically: 2 cores were 3+3 (one 5% and the other 20%) on one side. On the other side, 3 cores were 3+4 (5%, 5%, 20%)
Latest: Surgery with Dr. Menon at Ford Hospital, set for 1/25/10