Burl, you have been given a boatload of good advice to your question.
If you are just nervous nervous about
the upcoming surgery, 100%, and if needed, even your GP or surgeon could put you on something mild to help you chill between now and then.
If you are worried about
being put under, I may be the odd one but I enjoy being put under. It is total and utter bliss, you dont know anything dont feel anything. Some people have trouble coming out from being put under, but its usually related to nausea, and they usually give you something for that to prevent it.
If you are 2nd guessing your decision, only you and you alone know in your heart of hearts what you want to do. I had some doubts even on the gurney waiting to leave for the OR, but I thought through an outline in my head why I was doing what I was doing, and remembering all the knowledge I had learned along the way that led me to that decision.
Like I told my darling daughter as I was walking her down the ailse 5 years ago, if you even have 1% doubt, we can just turn around and walk right out of here. It would be better to do that then to enter a wrong marriage. Same kind of thinking, dont worry about
what the hospital or surgeon will think. Make sure this is what you want, no instant replays, no rewinds.
We are here for you either way. But its most assuredly normal to have moments of fear, panic, doubt when I is about
to have a major and complex surgery. If it didn't bother you at all, I would be more concerned for you.
David in SC
57, 56 dx, PSA: 7/07 5.8, 7/08 12.3, 9/08 14.5, 10/08 16.33rd Biopsy
: 9/08 - 7/7 Positive, 40-90% Cancer, Gleason 4+3Open RP:
11/08, Rht nerves saved, 4 days in hospt, on catheters for 63 days, 5th one out 1/09Path Rpt
: Gleason 3+4, pT2c, 42g, 20% cancer, 1 pos margin
Incontinence: 1 Month ED: Non issue at any point post surgery
Post Surgery PSA: 2/09 .05,5/09 .1, 6/09 .11. 8/09 .16
Post SRT PSA:
Latest: 7/9 met 2 rad. oncl, 7/9 cath #6 - blockage, 8/9 2nd corr surgery, 8/9 cath #7 out 38 days, 9/9 - met 3rd rad. oncl., mapped 9/9, 10/1 - 3rd corr. surgery - SP cath/hard dialation, 10/5 - 11/27 IMRT SRT 39 sess/72 gys ,cath #8 33 days, Cath #9 35 days, 12/7 - Cath #10 in place