Jeff - a similar posting was in a magazine in the doctor's waiting room - dealing with prostate cancer - was not a cheery thought to see in print ( before my first visit with the Uro) -
-I only cried, maybe for 5 minutes and then moved on to get things planned/ concluded before the surgery and composed the " I am sorry to tell you this, but I have ... letter. I did a mass mailing to my close friends and family - that got it out of the way, so I could deal with the matters at hand.
I am sorry I only discovered HW after the surgery. It did feel very lonely waiting for the date to arrive, even though I knew thousands of men are affected by this each year.
I felt more stressed out before the diagnosis because I was not sure what was going on in my body.
-and for those lurkers, and others reading this topic - every day of your life you have to choose something - whether it be what you are having for dinner, or coping with your mother-in-law's visit, or coping with and surviving prostate cancer. Some may not want to choose the latter. It may seem too big or scary for them to cope with.
My word of advice is a little phrase I wrote when I was 15 years old after a suicide attempt. At that time, my life was a mess, family fighting, being beat up at school for looking/acting like a homo ( not the 2% milk) and not thinking anything was worth the bother....
"suicide is like a severed hand touching an un
Whenever I am down in the dumps and wonder if all this is worth it, I remember my little phrase and count all the things that happened after that eventful day - and usually some memory or thought brings me around and I do ( to coin a popular phrase) count my blessings.
Wishing you peace and contentment, good guidance and love and support on this journey.
54 - gay - with spouse, Steve - 59PSA:
04/2007- 1.68 - 08/2009 - 3.46 - 10/2009 - 3.86Confirmation of Prostate Cancer:
October 16, 2009 - 6 of 12 cancerous samples , Gleason 7 (4+3)Doctor:
Dr. Mohamed Elharram -Urologist / Surgeon - Peterborough Regional Health CentreRadical Prostatectomy Operation:
November 18, 2009 , home - November 21, 2009Post Surgery Biopsy:
pT3a- gleason 7 - extraprostatic extension - perineural invasion - prostate weight - 34.1gm - ED Prescription:
Jan 8/2010 - started daily 5mg cialislocation:
Peteborough, Ontario, Canada
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