Casey, it's not like I am incapable of experiencing what you speak about.
Last spring, around this time, I was doing so much better. For about 4 months, I was cath free, I was healing well from my open surgery, rarely had pains at all, was fully continent, and had no ED. Shortly after, my wife and I made our memory lane trip to Florida. It was wonderful. We came back and purchased a vintage RV, which I spent the spring and early summer restoring. I was just beginning to feel I had my life back. Now when I look back, those were the good times.
From July of last year, till now, it's been one PC related thing after the next. Just woke up, sitting here typng with 2 catheters gnawing at my lower regions, and pain too much to ease with an advil, and t hey told me not to take them anyway because of the bleeding. I am now a month away from my 2nd post SRT PSA reading.
So you can see the contrast in my life, I am thankful for those few months that I was all but ok, and I am hoping and praying that somehow I can work my way back to at least that existence. Right now, unfortunately, I am still in the midst of my battle, not time for R&R like when I was in the Military. Hoping in a month or two tops, to be on the good side of things again.
So for me: cancer free day(s) or mind set - is simply based on my current reality at the time. Every person here absorbed things differently.
David in SC
Age: 57, 56 dx, PSA: 7/07 5.8, 7/08 12.3, 9/08 14.5, 10/08 16.3
3rd Biopsy: 9/08 - 7/7 Positive, 40-90% Cancer, Gleason 4+3
Open RP: 11/08, Rht nerves saved, 4 days in hospt, on catheters for 63 days, 5th one out 1/09
Path Rpt: Gleason 3+4, pT2c, 42g, 20% cancer, 1 pos margin
Incontinence: 1 Month ED: Non issue at any point post surgery, no problem post SRT
Post Surgery PSA: 2/09 .05,5/09 .1, 6/09 .11. 8/09 .16
Post SRT PSA: 1/10 .12
Latest: 7/9 met 2 rad. oncl, 7/9 cath #6 - blockage, 8/9 2nd corr surgery, 8/9 cath #7 out 38 days, 9/9 - met 3rd rad. oncl., mapped 9/9, 10/1 - 3rd corr. surgery - SP cath/hard dialation, 10/5 - 11/27 IMRT SRT 39 sess/72 gys ,cath #8 33 days, Cath #9 35 days, 12/7 - Cath #10 43 days, 1/19 - Corr Surgery #4, Caths #11 and #12 same time, 2/8-Cath #11 out - 21 days, 3/2- Cath #12 out - 41 days, 3/2- Corr Surgery #5, Caths #13 & #14 same time