I'm back with the time to more actively participate in the forum (hold down the boo's and disappointments, ok?
We buried my Dad yesterday. He was diagnosed with lung cancer exactly 2 months before his death, given less than 6 months to live, but it progressed very quickly to his brain. His greatest fears were dying a lingering, painful death, and the burdens it would place on his family. We and he were blessed that he was able to say goodby to family and friends before getting too ill to receive them in his more natural state. He died painlessly and peacefully Sunday morning with only me by his side. He went so quickly, literally from one breath to another, there was no time to gather the rest of the family. I feel so blessed that I was able to be there at his leaving and could truthfully tell the rest of our family that he got his wish of how he wished to go. My dad was a quiet, gentle, giving man, a true WWII wounded hero, who never talked much about
his experiences, but did
open up to me in his last few weeks. If you have seen the HBO series "Pacific" this spring, you can get an idea of how his experience was. From New Guiena to the liberation of the Phillipines to waiting on a ship and training for an estimated 90% casualty assault on mainland Japan at wars end, with his outfit-the Bushmaster's- 158th Regimental Combat Team, his war years produced a man of iron will and tough determination. He spent the rest of his life as a hard working husband. father and friend. As each of this, the Greatest Generation dies, our country loses little pieces of what has made this country what it became, even today.
I apologize if this is off topic, or uncomfortable subject for some, but some of you guys have become better friends than any 'real life' friends I have, and I just wanted to post a little of my feelings and to share my pride and a little of my grief with you.
My mother will be moving to my sisters home to live, so some of the remaining worry and work involved has been reduced. Thanks for letting me vent... In the meantime, I am facing my 3 years PSA test in 2 weeks and for some reason, I am beginning to feel that testing fear. Oh well, it will be what it will be. Thanks for listening.
James C. Age 63
Gonna Make Myself A Better Man www.youtube.com/watch?v=a6cX61oNsRQ&feature=channel
4/07: PSA 7.6, Recheck after 4 weeks Cipro-6.7
7/07 Biopsy: 3 of 16 PCa, 5% involved, left lobe, GS3+3=6
9/07: Nerve Sparing
open RRP, 110gms, Path Report- Stg. pT2c, 110 gms., margins clear
3 Years: PSA's .04 each test since surgery, ED continues: Bimix- .3ml PRN, Trimix- .15ml PRN