Thanks for your concern. You've been right there in my corner since the beginning of this little saga, and I appreciate it.
I have had major surgery before, but nothing like what you've been through.
My take on this is that we're should do this in whatever way the doc is comfortable. I'm very nearly as interested in his comfort level as mine. I want him to be as comfortable and at ease as he can be during this complex procedure. Moreover, he has vast experience with this, while I have none. It would be foolish, in my view, to try to micromanage this surgery for him. He has my confidence, and I'm going to let him do his thing his way.
I don't think I'll have a problem with being awake; if I did I'd say something. I do, however, have an out. He did say that I can be sedated if I want, and he can give me drugs to ease the anxiety or make me sleepy.
My hunch is that any anxiety is going to be more general in nature, and not related to what specifically goes on during the procedure. I also won't have his view of what's happening, and he seems to think I won't actually see much. However, if I find it overwhelming, or just get fatigued by the whole thing, I'm sure he'll give me something to make me sleep through it.
Candidly, I'm a lot more worried about
the after-effects in terms of incontinence and ED than I am about
the actual procedure. I've been making a lot of jokes about
this, but I don't take any of it lightly. This guy's a department chair who has done over 1,000 surgeries. He continues to do a lot of surgeries, and is doing three on the day of my surgery. Again, he has my confidence.
Post Edited (Jazzman1) : 10/9/2010 10:42:16 AM (GMT-6)