"PCa has changed my entire view of life and no not for the better."
Your post is very thought provoking. Your one phrase however, caused me to think a little.
How has it changed my life ? Is it for the better or for worse ?
Other than the side effects we all complain about
, which obviously are worse than what we were used to, I have concluded in my own mind that in many ways my life is better.
1. I am more grateful for life itself. I savor things a little more than I used to. A walk in the outdoors on a beautiful day, a good meal, a loving family, the ability to work, etc. were the kinds of things I just took for granted that I could expect for many years.
2. I am a more loving husband, father, grandfather. Realizing more than I did before that life is not a guarantee, and that I am mortal, I am more aware that I should life in a manner that if I should clutch my chest and drop over like your friend, or die from matastisized PC, that I need to be sure that I need to live like every moment may be my last. I tell my family I love them every time I see them, tell my friends that appreciate them, and try not to make any new enemies. Life is short, and may be even shorter.
3. I do do things a little more on the whim. If I am invited to go fishing or hunting, or a trip to New York or Louisiana, I am more likely to do it. I don't have a bucket list, but I want to experience everything I can. I have realized that I can't just wait until a more convenient time.
4. And on and on. I really do believe that my quality of life is better. The side effects of the "cure", be it for 2 years, 10 years, or 23 years are worth to me. A drip in my pants, or difficulty in having sex are worth the ability to spend a few more years here. I would do it over again without hesitation.
Age 58, PSA 4.47 Biopsy - 2/12 cores , Gleason 4 + 5 = 9
Da Vinci, Cleveland Clinic 4/14/09 Nerves spared, but carved up a little.
0/23 lymph nodes involved pT3a NO MX
Catheter and 2 stints in ureters for 2 weeks .
Neg Margins, bladder neck negative
Living the Good Life, cancer free 6 week PSA <.03
3 month PSA <.01 (different lab)
5 month PSA <.03 (undetectable)
6 Month PSA <.01
1 pad a day, no progress on ED. Trimix injection
No pads, 1/1/10, 9 month PSA < .01
1 year psa (364 days) .01
15 month PSA <.01
Post Edited (goodlife) : 10/9/2010 7:23:11 PM (GMT-6)