All in all, I'd say you were as 'normal' as apple pie on a summer day at the lake --- at least a normal summer day at the lake for our family when the wood stove is kept busy churning out my wife's legnedary apple pies!
Let's face it, you don't hear the word 'cancer' out of your doctor's mouth without wondering if you should be putting the local funeral home on speed dial and cleaning out the top drawer of your desk while you're still able. Life doesn't come with any guarantees, except at some point we're all going to die. When is the question. And, for all of us, PCa may get us. However, if you want to place bets and make money doing so, you don't want to bet on PCa winning. I'm not saying it isn't a worry, but so too is getting whacked by a bus, being gunned down by a passing road rage motorist, or dropping of a heart attack.
What you must do is put your PCa into perspective. I assume your Gleason is 3+4. All on one side. Others here will be better able to comment, but I think you probably should be worried more about
that high blood pressure than about
the PCa. You had a problem. It was treated. You're way better off than a lot of your friends your age who are going around today with PCa untreated and don't know anything about
Putting PCa into perspective isn't easy. It's probably not unlike being involved in an airplane crash, walking away, and then facing up to getting on another airplane. The shock of what happened would tend to dominate any reasonable putting the next ride into perspective as the door closed and the pilot pushed back from the gate.
Your worries were no different than mine two weeks after evisceration. And, everytime I go for a post op PSA I worry some. But, I worry less now than I did. Bit by bit I'm putting my PCa threat into perspective. You will too.
Consider yourself hugged.
Sheldon AKA Sleepless
Age 67 in Apil '09 at news of 4 of 12 cores positive T2B and Gleason 3 + 3 and 5% to 25% PSA 1.5
Re-read of slides in June said Gleason 3 + 4 same four cores 5% to 15%
June 29 daVinci prostatectomy, Dr. Eric Estey, at Royal Alexandra Hospital Edmonton one night stay
From "knock out" to wake up in recovery less than two hours. Actual surgery 70 minutes
Flew home to Winnipeg on July 3 after 5 nights in Ramada Inn --- perfect recovery spot!
Catheter out July 9
Final pathology is 3 + 4 Gleason 7, clear margins, clear nodes, T2C, sugeron says report is "excellent"
Oct 1st 09 -- dry at night, during day some stress issues.
Oct 31st padless 24/7
First post op PSA Sept 09 less than 0.02
PSA on Oct 23, 2009 less than 0.02
PSA on Jan 8, 2010 less than 0.02
PSA on April 9, 2010 less than 0.02
PSA on July 9, 2010 (one year) less than 0.02