Most of us have been there, done that. Sounds like you are approaching it rationally. Unfortunately, the unknown usually causes anxiety in us. Can't be avoided.
How we respond tho, can be helped, or at least controlled. There is a phrase that surfaces frequently on here. "It is what it is." That is a fact. No amount of worry, fretting, crying, whatever will change those facts. The more you can convince yourself of that fact, the easier it will be for you to approach the problem calmly and rationally.
While you can't change what it is, you can definitely have an impact on
what it will be. You are already off to a good start. Written questions, reading books, getting on the Internet. There was a good suggestion to stat a file, and get all PSA results, lab tests, and pathology in writing. Multiple opinions are a requirement. Don't rush into anything, and be sure you understand all the treatment options and the immediate and long term side effects.
Welcome to Healing Well. This is not a death sentence. You will have many years of good life, even if it tuns out to be an aggressive case. I would recommend you learn how to enjoy life in maybe a different way. Watch the sunsets, smell the roses twice, be sure you tell those you love that you love them often.
i wish you well on your visit with the doctor. Be sure and question him, he is a doctor, not a deity. You are in charge of your future.
Age 58, PSA 4.47 Biopsy - 2/12 cores , Gleason 4 + 5 = 9
Da Vinci, Cleveland Clinic 4/14/09 Nerves spared, but carved up a little.
0/23 lymph nodes involved pT3a NO MX
Catheter and 2 stints in ureters for 2 weeks .
Neg Margins, bladder neck negative
Living the Good Life, cancer free 6 week PSA <.03
3 month PSA <.01 (different lab)
5 month PSA <.03 (undetectable)
6 Month PSA <.01
1 pad a day, no progress on ED. Trimix injection
No pads, 1/1/10, 9 month PSA < .01
1 year psa (364 days) .01
15 month PSA <.01