Been following this thread and trying to find the words that describe MY beliefs and feelings on living with PCa.
The operative phrase for me is 'LIVING WITH PCa".
You have all seen me close my posts with "Every Day is A Bonus", that truly is a heart-felt mantra with me. I do not minimize, trivialize or any other ize my PCa.
It just "is what it is". My wife's cancer "is what it is". We follow up with the doctors, take the tests and listen to their recommendations and then make decisions. If it is time to be concerned then we are. But as soon as that time passes we are back to living with cancer and not just existing with it. Jeez what a waste of time that would be.
We choose to spend our energies (when we have them) living life. Spending time with our families and taking care of them when the need arises. Doing things we enjoy and finding something wonderful in every day.
I am not going to say that PCa or Lynn's Myeloma doesn't come into our thoughts or conversations. It does. But when it does it comes in the form of a conversation the same way we might think about
what's for dinner, where will be go on a trip and do I have the desire to go out in the boat.
BTW, I am going shrimping in my boat tonight. The weather is great and soon the shrimp should be running.
Many cannot approach this the way we do, I understand that. I can honestly say I have never experienced PSA anxiety of any other anxiety. I put the tests down on my calendar and then hope I remember it. I have alarms set on my calendar and phone to remind me just in case I have something else planned for the day.
I learned a long time ago that I cannot spend time worrying about
things I cannot control. I can't do a darned thing about
my or Lynn's cancer except deal with the medical aspects with due diligence as they come up.
I came here to HW as everyone else who finds this place does, looking for answers. I stay around so that I might help others, might say the comforting words that they need at the time or share something from my experience that may give them a direction they have not thought of. I DO NOT stay here because I am pre-occupied with my PCa.
I am not pre-occupied with it at all. It may take me in the end and then again I may fall out of the boat tonight and drown. All of us could fall prey to something, drunk driver, falling meteorite, sudden storms, whatever. But do we let it keep us in the house where we think we are safe.
So why let PCa keep us from living life to it's fullest. If anything this should have re-enforced in us the value of living because tomorrow is not guaranteed for any of us.
I don't have the magic formula, thought process, workout routine or grand plan.
Every Day is Really a Bonus and we just try to grab it by the throat and enjoy the hell out of it.
60 years old - PSA 11/07 3.0 PSA 5/09 6.4
da Vinci 9/17/09
Post Surgery Pathology: GS 4+3=7
Tumor Volume 12.5% positive margin, extra-prostatic extension
30 day PSA 0.4, 50 day psa 0.53, 64 day psa 0.6
IMRT completed 1/15/10 35 treatments- 70Gy
2/23/10 Post IMRT PSA 1.0
3/22/10 PSA 1.5
4/19/10 PSA 1.2
5/22/10 PSA 1.3
8/9/10 Completed Radiation for MET
9/7/10 PSA 2.2
1/5/11 PSA 3.9
Post Edited (Sonny3) : 1/19/2011 11:11:07 AM (GMT-7)