I hate to admit this, but maybe others find the same experience.
My pathology has not been good. PSA rising after RP., etc. etc.
Lately, I've noticed that I kind of gloss over those posts where people are doing well. This is a support group and I should be posting "way-to-go" posts.
Sadly, I find myself on the jealous side. I remember this happening to me when I first got my pathology report, then those feelings subsided, and now they are back as I get closer to my next PSA.
This will subside, too, but I am not pleased with myself.
Just a character flaw, as far as I am concerned!
PSA-- 3/08--2.90; 8/09--4.01; 11/09--4.19 (PSAf: 24%), PCA3 =75 .
Biopsy 11/30/09. Gleason 4+3. Stage: T1C. Current Age: 64
Surgery: Dr. Menon @Ford Hospital, 1/26/10.
Pathology Report: G 4+3. Nodes: Clear. PNI: yes. SVI: No. EPE: yes. Pos. Margin: Yes-- focal-- 1 spot .5mm. 100% continent by 3/10. ED- in progress. PSA on 3/10/10-: 0.01. PSA on 6/21/10--0.02. 9/21/10--0.06; 1/4/11-0.13 CRAP!