I’m 99% of what I was pre-operative. Not only that, for reasons that are not completely clear, I’m still pulling zeros after having a large volume of cancer and a Gleason that keeps me awake at night. I’m in the gym 3 - 4 days a week and I’m going to run a 10 k in Fairbanks this June. But at the end of the day, in my head, I’m still far from 100%. Why, because I have, or, I have had... cancer. In time I still expect to flunk out of the zero club and go down that difficult path that others have done...poor, poor Hero... I all to often find myself wishing, wishing for something that I can’t have. I’m such hypocrite, and I become blind to the daily challenges of others. So today when I saw what Casey had posted about the battle that his wife is fighting I remember the war others are currently undergoing that post here. I am reminded of the struggle that Sonny and his wife engage, and how much of an inspiration to me Living1963 has been, then Jetguy... To be sure there are others but you get my point. I have been in a ME, ME, ME, mental place. I forget just how darn lucky I am. I come to this board several times each day and I am very truly touched by the individual and collective strength that I find. I am with absolute certainty a better person in many ways, having found this community. I obviously need a swift kick in the backside once in a while, something my father would have called and attitude adjustment, and today Casey provided that thump.
Hope and Peace to all.
Age 51 PSA 6.8
Bxy 10 of 12 Cores positive for Gleason 6. up to 75%
Robotic surg 11-02-09
Post op path. 20% neoplasm;4+3=7 Gleason
All nodes (14) and other related tissue negative for cancer
Post op PSA x 3, all <0.01