NEIrish, thank you for a nice post.
Good analogy, feel like I have been painted into a corner, and there's no way out but to get paint on me. Have had enough paint on me to last a lifetime.
Me trying to help others in my simplistic way, has been good therapy for me in itself. It's not like I know all that much, I am just a patient that has been through hell and back so far. So what I understand is the fear, the uncertainty, the pain, etc. that can accompany any cancer event. And this is my 4th major cancer event thus far, so its not like I am on new ground.
While I can be accomadating and gracious to others, and seem to have unlimited patience and empathy to their hurts and woes, I can be ruthless to myself. A "head" doctor told me several years ago when I was battling Major Depression, that I was good to everyone else but myself, and that I put unrealistic expectations on myself, and and inflicted on myself cruel and strict rules that I would never do to another. I think she had a point, but that's just me.
I can't always be tough, or always be strong, or always have the right answers. Sometimes, I simply just don't know.
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