I used to be a fish -
i fully understand what you are posting. I'm always thinking of the worst myself and looking for guarantees that nobody can give me even though everyone tells me not to worry anymore.
That said, I think we need to find a way of stepping back and away form all this. I love this site, I think it is incredibly valuable but sometimes there is too much in our PCa world that creates negativity.
I have family members who beg me to not read stuff online about
PCa. They think that distancing yourself from this whole new reality of ours is the best way to approach it and move on. This might explain why its really hard to find people who are doing great on medical forums. Maybe we are punishing ourselves when we constantly dig around the internet for studies and articles that we hope can give us some kind of temporal guarantee.
I'm such a sucker for punishment that I even watched the Javier Bardem movie "Biutiful" the other night about
a man in Barcelona who dies of advanced (edit) prostate cancer. It was so difficult to watch. My father had seen it and knew I was watching and called me begging me to turn it off. He just didn't see the benefit for me to see that.
So, remission, cured... I don't know. But I do know that no matter how impossible it might be for some of us because of our personalities, It might just be best to go to our scheduled doctor visits but live as if we didn't have anything anymore. If it ops up again we'll deal with it as our doctors suggest we should and keep hoping until we can.
I'm sure a few will misinterpret this post. I love this site, but perhaps there is something to stepping away from all this and trying to move one in order to try and stop worrying so much. I'm not there yet but hope to be soon. I just spent ten days without internet and it was great.
Post Edited (davidg) : 6/14/2011 6:28:20 PM (GMT-6)