Hey sic, I dont think anyone really means you any harm. The various responses reflect the individual thoughts and conclusions of others who are similarly effected by this disease, be that emotional, physical and most often all-of-the-above.
You can be sure all the others wish you were "cured" - however we define that. I think the problem is that most who looked at your situation think that you might be fooling yourself by coming to that conclusion, to your potential detriment.
On the otherhand, as much as the indignities this disease has caused each of us (and I CAN appreciate your story of the nurse - been there, and it reminds me of calling to get my post rrp pca results.. and I could TELL that the nurse didn't have a cluse about
the impact of the decimal point... ).
I guess when you;ve had enough you have to decide to live yourlife instead of living your life fighting a cancer that there is no proven cure for. And things look dark, the drugs dont help, the low t adds to it.
But remember this, the zero psa is GREAT NEWS, so try and think of it as keeping in touch with the drs your trust, compromise. You apparently have fought a hrad and good fight - dont throw away the fact that, at a minimum, youve apparently bought yourself some hard earned years.
If the dr was originally telling you 10 years. Maybe youve bumped that to 20. So use some of those to allow your testosterone to come back natuarally so you dont incite any remaining cells.
Maybe in a year or 2 your hair will be back, your sex level returns, you still have zeros, and with the years you've gained perhaps down the road you can help your son learn how to love his son as you do him.
I hope so. Dont get too high or too low. Try not to anyways.
My prayers are with you today..
Post Edited (BobCape) : 10/28/2011 8:18:02 AM (GMT-6)