Hi John, it's a scary day when you start thinking about
mortality. I was 49 at my diagnosis, and looking back I experienced feelings of "cancer hysteria" that are quite natural in our society where the word "cancer" is associated with images of suffering and death.
Several years later, I have a much different understanding of prostate cancer. PC is really two, or maybe three, different diseases. There certainly are men with uncommon strains of aggressive PC who will and do die from the disease, but it turns out to be a small percentage of the total number of people who are diagnosed with PC.
The reality is that 50% of 50-year olds have been found (in autopsy studies of men who died accidently) to have PC...the key difference between you and them before they died is that you have had a set of circumstances that led to a biopsy, and they didn't.
PC is one of the most common and least lethal of all cancers, producing a large population of survivors...you've just joined that population.
Keep your head on. Easy for me to say from my vantage point, but don't panic. You have nothing in the case characteristics you provided here to indicate an aggressive case. Take time to educate yourself.
Welcome...and welcome to 49.