Posted 2/11/2013 7:46 PM (GMT -7)
yes, my friend, a good time to chill. while I believe in being fully informed of any PC treatment decision, and doing one's due diligence, there is such a thing as over-kill, mentally and emotionally.
feel you are doing all the right things, but you often sound over-stressed by the process. but with such a serious decision ahead of you (and all the others that walked before you), I would rather be guilty of knowing too much than too little.
once you have made your decision, carried through on, and find yourself on the "other side" as we call the recovery side/phase, a lot of your stress should be behind you. no choice ever proves to be perfect, and all come with risks and things that can't be predicted in advance, so you do the best you can do on your end (as you have been doing for some time), then make your decision and let it roll.
in my case, what wasn't known prior to treatment, was that I had some kind of unusually deep and narrow prostate bed. that's a personal anatomy issue with my body. because of that one issue, many things resulted. I had open surgery (good thing I wanted it, because this problem would have forced any robotic attempt to be aborted). but the surgeon was unable to cut "wide" as he wanted to, this in turn left me with a positive margin, which later caused recurrence quickly after surgery. on the plus side, he was unable to remove my right side nerve bundle, and as of that - I never had any ED. but it also made for a very difficult bladder neck to urethra connection, again - an access problem for the surgeon, which led to all my endless post surgery stricture issues.....one thing led to another, all because of one issue that had nothing to do with my surgeon himself. one can never predict every possible outcome in advance is my point.
Age: 60, 56 at PC dx, PSA 16.3
3rd Biopsy: 9/8 7 of 7 Positive, 40-90%, 4+3
open RP: 11/8, Catheter in 63 days
Path Rpt: 3+4, pT2c, 42g, 20% tumor, 1 pos margin
Incont & ED: None
Surgery Failed, recurrence within 9 months
Salvage Radiation 10/9-11/9, SRT failed within 9 months, PSA 4/12 = 37.x
Spent total of 1 ½ years on 21 catheters, Ileal Conduit Surgery 9/10,
7 other PC-related surgeries
Member of Prostate Cancer & Chronic Pain HW Communities since 10/2008
“I live in the weak and the wounded” – Session Nine (Movie)