Gunfighter, you are an amazing man. I can't even imagine! Although many others here can relate closer. It pains me to even read the words; however, I dealt with a good friends flashbacks for years - they are very, very REAL and painful. They can be as or more painful than the event. You don't have the adrenalin or emotions of the moment carrying you through and protecting you. Hopefully you didn't any of us were minimizing it. I think sometimes in trying to encourage, it may feel as if we're not listening. You have been a great encouragement to me. Take care of you.
Side note said with a smile - your emotions on Lupron may be like ours back during PMS
and add the hot flashes.
now 67, dx 49 PSA 4.2 RP 95
5+ yrs later radiation,
Study pom PSA rise.
7+ yrs Lupron
9/12 path arm break, bone mets, tumors. Study For Custersen. Control on Taxotere 9 treatments 10/18/11-4/12 PSA 5.2.
Zytiga -no se but PSA up to 57-5/12 to 7/12
8/12 started Jevtana
9/26 PSA 46.6 Se fatigue, chemo brain.
12/28 PSA 70.
1/15 PSA 85-start Xtandi