I do realize chemo can manage it and one day that may be the treatment. I just had read it was typically used when HT stopped, that scared me that the treatment was starting with chemo, I'll be honest. I also was afraid of flu/cold season and still real crazy about
keeping hands washed and any coughs, sneezes covered with the Lupron. Cancer is all new to me and although I can't stop reading about
PC sometimes it all seems to be a lil overpowering. I know I'm just like all of you, wanting a cure, new meds, medical advancements and I believe it will all come and some on its way. In many ways I'm not like many of you because I don't have the disease, I don't experience the pain, the unknown, reading Purgatory's story I now think about
a man often that I don't know that I just found a few days ago goggling this disease. My dad has severe pain, although I've never felt it, I've seen it and heard it and know how it makes me feel in a panic wanting to just take it. I couldn't imagine CP. I've read other threads about
the surgery and I read Todds Blog which helped explain a lot of my dads emotions. So many of you have helped in so many ways and I could name each and everyone one from Dave to David, Allen, Sonny, Peter, Redwing and the list goes on and on. I'm really not sure how I can begin to express my gratitude. I'm just so overwhelmed with joy that treatment started, as I said in one post I feel like a race horse at the start gate. Early post where I asked if there was anything I could do with the support side. After treatment at the car my dad stopped me. He told me not to think everything I was doing he didn't know although I wasn't mentioning all of it. He had seen the numbers written, notes taken, me always reading. He said all he knew was he had stage 4 cancer and friends were telling him to get his affairs in order, my mom was treating him like he was sick by not wanting him to work and do lil stuff, but you had never done that. I don't know what just happened but I know you do. I could never repay or thank you enough, you were the only reason I knew I would wake up the next day with this disease. You never and will never give up. Of course I cried and told him that's the best thing about
family, and love, you never have to repay you just accept it. I know days he will be hateful, he is a strong willed man and I'm down for that. To the ones standing by these men's side, listening, being encouraging, showing them your fighting too and most important never let this disease make them feel less than who they are, strong men!!My dad once told me cancer made him feel less of a man and I told him it makes you so much of a stronger man, maybe that's why it happens to men like all of you. You're so strong you can show the way and fight this, be an inspiration to others. Just thinking out loud as the whys of the universe.
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