Posted 10/11/2014 5:23 PM (GMT -7)
Tim, that was a great quote! I really, really liked that, and had never heard of it before.
"What can't be cured, must be endured"
That sums up a lot of what I am, and have been dealing with the past 6 plus years. Almost nothing that has been done for me in the name of treatment or "cure" has worked, or worked correctly, or involved complications that most don't have to ever deal with.
Why me? I never ask myself that question, life is what it is, and the common saying is that one deals with the cards dealt to them.
Am I being punished? Early in my troubled days, I did search my soul and ask that question more than once or twice. But I really don't believe in that line of thinking per say. Even in the good book, it talks about how it rains on the just and unjust alike, and that's good enough for me
Were it not for my personal faith, I might gravitate to feeling utterly hopeless at times, but I know that in the big picture, everything in my life is under control, and is being taken care of. In the flesh, however, there are moments that bother me, but as your quote says, I "endure".
I am slowly healing on the dental front. It's only been 9 days since the surgery. I was told it may take 4-5 months (not weeks) to heal to the level that the surgeon wants, before I can be fitted for the dentures.
And I knew that there would be at least 10 post-surgery hyperbaric treatments. Half-way through them, even though it truly was a week from hell. I will endure those last 5, have no choice, and at this point, I will feel like a new man when #10 is over with hopefully next Friday afternoon. Then I should never need to go through that again.
It is weird thinking, that I will never have to deal with tooth pain again, ever. No more tooth aches, no more cavities, no more teeth breaking apart. Kind of like the sounds of that part, a few months from now.
Eating is still very difficult at the moment, mostly liquid base food only. Gums too sore to grab a hold of anything. So whatever I eat, has to go straight from my sore lips to the roof of my mouth and down my throat. Once the gums heal some more and start to harden up, I am sure that I can expand my choices.
Since I still have zero appetite at a given moment, the loss of eating is not painful to me, other than I know my weight is really getting down there. So I still have to make an effort to eat at all.
Thanks for your continued great support, and a great quote to remember.
Age: 61, 56 at PC dx, PSA 16.3
3rd Biopsy: 9/8 7 of 7 Positive, 40-90%, 4+3
open RP: 11/8, Catheter in 63 days
Path Rpt: 3+4, pT2c, 42g, 20% tumor, 1 pos margin
Incontinence & ED: None
Surgery Failed, recurrence within 9 months
Salvage Radiation 10/9-11/9, SRT failed within 9 months, PSA: Too High
Spent total of 1 ½ years on 21 catheters, Ileal Conduit Surgery 9/10,
7 other PC-related surgeries