"@81GyGuy, I just reread your post in this thread, thanks again."
Just trying to help, like the others here.
This really is two diseases, not one. The first one is the one that attacks our bodies, in a kind of mindless, mechanical way, kind of like an evil organic robot creeping along from cell to cell. We attack it with the treatments we have, and hopefully we are successful.
The second one is the one that attacks our minds, and it is much more insidious, and in some ways the more terrible form of the disease. This is because we can leave the situation of our body disease to the doctors, and even let them worry about
it for us, if we can do that.
But when it comes to the mind's version of this beast, we are really on our own. Counseling, whether formally with a practitioner or more informally with people like forum members, may help, but ultimately it's our own individual decision as to how we face this in our own minds, and face it daily.
The answer is as individual as each of us is. It may help to realize that there are people right here, and Todd our resident superstar is a perfect example of this, who were written off as soon-to-be terminal by their doctors long ago, and who, lo and behold, are still here, years later, going strong! So really, the odds of living long with this disease are with you, whatever fears in the back of your mind may be telling you otherwise.
There are other things you can try to do if you haven't already. Google things like "psychology of cancer" and such, and find and read encouraging articles. Are you sure you aren't in the grips of a biochemical depression, which is a very common condition when facing cancer? If so, being biochemical, it can be treated medically. Consider that. There's also a thing that I have personally found to be very helpful in a situation like this. That is to examine your mind, to think really long and hard, about
the one thing, or maybe it's a couple of things, that you really enjoy
doing in life. It could be a hobby, or your relationship with another person, or hunting or fishing, or sports, or just working on your car. Whatever it is that works for you. Come to realize just what that one thing is, that is unique to you. Then, when you feel the dark thoughts coming over you, start thinking hard
doing that special thing, how enjoyable it is, and keep thinking about
it. And if possible, go and actually do it! I have found that helps me a great deal to drive away the black dog when it tries to get into my mind.
And for sure you know there will always be a number of us here 24/7 on HW PC, to listen to venting, and such. Anytime. Guaranteed.
Chronic prostatitis (age 60 on)
BPH w/ urinary obstruction, 6/2011
Ongoing high PSA, 7/2011-12/2011
Biopsy, 12/2011: positive 3/12 (90%, 70%, 5%)
Gleason 6(3+3), T1c
No mets, PCa likely still organ contained
IMRT w/ HT (Lupron), 4/2012-6/2012
PSAs (2012): <0.1
PSAs (2013): <0.1
PSA Apr.'14: <0.1
Post Edited (81GyGuy) : 12/3/2014 10:33:52 AM (GMT-7)