LoL. I cant believe you are still fretting over all this P-Man. There is one sure fact about
life and that is none of us will get out alive.
That said here is a serious bit of advice/information for you. In February 2013 I lost my father. I then spent the year with the very unpleasant talk of trying sort out his estate the way that he wanted. It was a total mess and I had to use three lawyers to help me. That year I got myself into a total mess and for no real reason, because the lawyers were doing a brilliant job. But like you there was always the "what if" issues bombarding my brain.
Come December 2013 things were almost sorted, but then I got the news about
my PSA from my doctor. None of this could be finalised because of the fast approaching Christmas holidays so had to play the waiting game until January. Then by the end of January with just one week to go before things got completed on my fathers estate I spent the week in hospital, because within 48 hours I lost the sight in both eyes!! Yes, it is true. After many tests they found the reason "Conversion disorder" Check it out. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Conversion_disorder.
The neurologists said it was almost certainly caused by all the stress and worry that had been caused during 2013 and could not guarantee to what level my sight would return, if at all!!! Luckily by May 2014 it had pretty much returned to normal, but even today it is not perfect, especially in bright light settings.
My doctor warned me that I had to "de-stress my life" because it could happen again and next time I may not be so lucky. She said the body has so many ways of dealing/showing stress and although fairly uncommon "Conversion disorder" is just one of them. Wile I was in hospital that week there was an old guy who had just lost his dog. The only friend and company he had. He was much worse than me. He lost the sight in both eyes, the use of one arm and was unable to move his mouth!
I don't think I ever told you about
all this. It is not something that I wanted to talk about
, because at the time it scared the life out of me thinking I COULD be blind, or worse.
Honest P-Man, you MUST stop all this before something snaps!. Take a break from all this PC stuff and start to enjoy life................ I could go on, but I don't want to get myself in a state right now and put myself back to where I was at the beginning of last year. At the moment my bum is hurting real bad,
so I will concentrate on that. The last two days have been pretty stressful for me.
I am telling you all this not to scare you, but to show I care and worry about
your state of mind right now and where it could lead.
Dec 2013 DRE Enlarged but smooth prostate.
Dec 2013 PSA 4.2 July 2014 PSA 5.1 Sept 2014 PSA 19.
Awaiting transperineal biopsy (Template Prostatic Biopsy)
Oct 21st 14 Template Prostatic Biopsy
Nov 3rd 14 Biopsy results show PC, Gleason (3+4) 7
Awaiting bone scan.
Nov 24th bone scan result negative.
Nov 25th PSA now 6.4 YES!!!!
Dec 2014. Chosen LDR Brachy treatment
Jan 27/28 LDR Brachy