Posted 6/27/2015 8:18 AM (GMT -6)
That's one of my doctor's points all along. In my case, he feels that adding the additional side effects and QOL issues associated with HT, isn't worth the cost to my well being. I agree. And he feels (not saying its a fact), that I would be likely to be HT resistant fairly fast, so what's the point?
If you look at what has happened to me since dx. in 2008. It's been the treatments for my cancer that has actually destroyed my body, my well being, etc. No actual damage from any of the 4 cancer battles I have fought, but as the results of trying to eradicate the cancers.
If I could only go back in time. I would have never under gone SRT for starters. It was doomed for failure from the start, let alone the risk of it being administered incorrectly. I should have known better, as I was already the survivor and damaged from the previous major radiation event I underwent in year 2000. I didn't trust my gut feeling on that one, have no one to blame but myself.
Many have knocked my current approach. To them I say, live 24 hours in my pain wracked body, and tell me what you would do? Next week, marks the 5th full year I have dealt with full time, full body, severe chronic pain as the results of cancer treatments. 5 years, never a waking moment that I am not feeling severe pain, despite the level of morphine based meds I have to take. If it were not for the meds, I don't think I would be able to handle being alive, its bad enough now.
Yet I soldier on, I don't see any other choice. This notion some have of "throwing everything at it" sounds tough and brave, but makes no sense to me, or my doctors. Sometimes attempting the cure is worse than the disease, I am living proof of that. My only relief is sleep, which is never enough, if I am lucky, I get 4-5 hours of broken sleep, often filled with nightmares.