Sue, my friend who lost her husband to cancer two-and-a-half months ago says exactly the same. I keep reliving his last hours and wondering, wondering. The night before, he ate a full dinner (just to please me maybe) and his legs were stronger. He was planning a trip in January and was scheduling various trades to finish our house. He had no pain and his eyes were bright. None of it makes any sense to me. The doctor said that cachexia was the actual cause. I guess that is true.
With my sister here, there is a lot of visiting the sights, etc. and talking. Even laughing, but I have no idea how I will feel when they leave December 20. Am I grieving properly (I am crying a lot) and will it all feel even worse a few weeks or months from now? So many questions. So few answers. All I know is that I loved him to pieces and he me. We wanted to grow old together. I have to move as well as I cannot afford this house and we were planning a move in the spring, so all the memories we made here will be distant. It is all so terribly sad. Hugs to Cathy and you and to all. xoxox
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