Feel like I've been on a roller coaster ride, especially emotionally.
Much happened in the past 12 hours. My VA doctor finally got the Lithium battle settled, only for me to be told to stop taking it totally until other treatments have ended.
For the 3rd time, I am set to begin ECT treatments. This time, I fully intend to bite the bullet and have them. I really need them, might be my last best chance to save my life. Past 3 days have been the worse kind of hell I have ever been through. Was convinced that the end was here.
So all my doctors, as a group, got together and compared notes, with my therapist taking charge, and they managed in a few hours to get everything done.
I have some blood work to do Monday afternoon, and the first treatment is scheduled for Wednesday at 7 AM. They will be done Monday - Wednesday- Friday, scheduled for a min. of 12. I may need maintenance ECT after, but will wait and see if they work for me. If they don't do the job, I have resigned myself to go in-patient at the VA for 4-8 weeks, but hoping the ECT can break the vicious circle I am in.
Never knew or understood how dangerous major long term depression can become. If any of you guys are fighting it, please don't, it will come back to haunt you, like it did me, and now, its so entrenched, its become a huge ordeal to break free. I thought toughing it out the past 8 years was the answer, but I know now, I was only fooling myself.
I will be seeing my new oncologist in about
a week or two, I accidently missed my last appointment. I still don't know the last PSA score, or what the results of that full body bone scan I had undergone months ago.
That's the latest on me
Post Edited (Purgatory) : 3/9/2017 8:15:36 PM (GMT-7)