Hello to all,
I've been reading through some current posts and felt the need to express my feelings.
As far as the 41% of guys on ADT that struggle with depression.... I've been on Wellbutrin for yrs now. I was prescribed venlafaxine shortly after my 1st Lupron shot for night sweats and to help me sleep. I still feel depressed just not as much as I could be.
I've been through IMRT 39 days, did 4 cycles Docetaxal and with ADT for almost 1 1/2 yrs. I'm getting pretty down about
now. I don't know how guys do ADT longer. Or.... maybe I do.
I've often read were someone is trying to make a decision about
treatment. Especially HR guys. A lot of times the fear of SE seems to sway the decision, which I understand and to each his own. But I had to make my own choice.
At the beginning I knew the side effects that I was faced with. On one hand I put side effects. In the other I put life. I chose life. Although there is no guarantee for the outcome I came to the realization that my life would never be the same. I have come to accept that.
The thing that gives me my most fear or doubt is that unlike surgery, RT doesn't give a true DX. We post toasties that didn't or couldn't have surgery don't know for sure. I knew that going in, but I really never thought that the un known would be so difficult.
I just try to tell myself " You've given it your best shot " Learning positive self talk really helps. It is something that can be learned, but needs to be practiced.
I'm hoping that the ADT will soon start to wear down and I will begin to feel more energy which should help with the depression I deal with.
Getting to the next part of my journey will ( I hope) give me something different. I will begin to see if the treatment worked. I know that the ADT worked as I have stayed undetectable now for about
6 months. What happens when I don't have it? That will be very telling. I look forward to see what happens, because either way I will have a better understanding as to where I stand.
I've rattled on enough. Thanks for listening.
Battle On Brothers!
The Artistic One - Mark
Dx 6/3/2016 PSA 3.42 %fPSA 7.6
Bx 6/1/2016 G9 ... 8 of 12 cores positive (70% - 60% - 30% - 30%)
4+5 =G9 (4 cores) 5+4 =G9 (2 cores) 3+4 =G7( (2 cores) PNI.. present
4/16 ct scan neg 6/13/16 Bone scan..neg
6/16 Zoladex,Lupron, 9/116,1/17,4/17
8/30/16 IMRT 79gy 39 fractions
PSA 1/17 0.02 ,2/17,0.02 ,2/13/17,0.02 2/23/17 0.02 3/15/0.02 4/5/17 <0.01
4/5/17 Docetaxel complete
Post Edited (Artist Mark) : 10/25/2017 2:30:31 PM (GMT-6)