We all are touched by losing relatives, or friends at one time or another. I just came back from another funeral yesterday, for Bill, an acquaintance of ours from church. He died of lung cancer, discovered in the stage 4 only 4 months ago. He was only 59. Two other friends of ours died in the past 6 months, two former roommates from lung cancer last year, and my good close friend Tom died of PC after a 2 year struggle.
Now another good friend at church has been diagnosed with Lung cancer, stage 4. I know many on this forum are far worse off than me with various nefarious ailments, but still continue to fight the good fight and contribute here to give others hope.
Makes me think how blessed I am, even to be PC stage 4, but in remission for the past 4 year plus. However, it's getting to a point though where every little pain is worrisome, that it may rear up it's ugly head. Worried more for my wife than for me, after seeing Bill's widow yesterday. I continue to get regular check -ups, and take the $ 9,000 per month Zytiga pills every day, and pray. Keep the Faith I will always say.
I am still working, but I have been leaning more towards retirement, getting tired of the grind. I am 63 1/2, and need to enjoy that next step in life with my wife. I would be sacrificing a lot of Social Security $ but no matter, I already have a very good private pension from a former Government job.
I am reminded of a short story I read many years ago by Tolstoy. I think the title was "How much land does a man really need?" The man, given an opportunity to walk or run for an entire day to lay claim to all the land that he could stake out..died at sunset, not being able to make it back to the starting point to drive in the last stake for his claim of property.
Just feeling with a heavy heart right now, need to be satisfied with what we have, and appreciate others, and love them even more each day. Because I am realizing with each passing day, that's what it is all about
Wings aka Dan in sunny again So Cal
Post Edited (Wings of Eagles) : 2/23/2019 7:55:10 PM (GMT-7)