No Subject (Part 4)

“And if the space in all of us was condensed out, "... the entire human species would fit into the volume of a sugar cube."

This makes it slightly easier for me to believe the entire contents of the universe existed as a singularity. It’s still seems absurd though.

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Part I
2015 (Age 54) PSA: 20.8
Bx: All cores high volume G7 (4+3)
RALP & Adjuvant RT
Pathology: G8 (4+4), focal areas of 5; Positive margins; 3 LNs negative
PSA nadir: 0.1
Steady PSA increase. June 2018: 22.3

Part II
2019
March: Lupron/Xtandi

I knew it, I knew it, I knew it!!!!!!!!!!!

Back in grade school my teacher would get mad at me whenever she would ask: Her -- "Frank what are you thinking about?" Me -- "Nothing"

My brain was simply thinking on it's existence and how small and insignificant we are, contemplating the nothingness of my existence.

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My Biopsy
My PSA Curve
Previous PSA
Curve
Treatment Path
My Story

mattam, agreed.

Hypnotist: Look at the dot on the wall and let your mind go blank..........................

That's better.

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My Biopsy
My PSA Curve
Previous PSA
Curve
Treatment Path
My Story

MIB, classic..............................................

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My Biopsy
My PSA Curve
Previous PSA
Curve
Treatment Path
My Story

"Aye, aye! and I'll chase him round Good Hope, and round the Horn, and round the Norway Maelstrom, and round perdition's flames before I give him up. And this is what ye have shipped for, men! to chase that white whale on both sides of land, and over all sides of earth, till he spouts black blood and rolls fin out."

Captain Ahab

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I'll be in the shop.
Age 59, 52 at DX
PSA:
4.2 10/11, 1.9 6/12, 1.2 12/12, 1.0 5/13, .6 11/13,
.7 5/14, .5 10/14, .5 4/15, .3 10/15, .3 4/16, .4 10/16, .4 5/17, .3 10/17 .3 4/18, .4 11/18
G 3+4
Stage T1C
2 out of 14 cores positive
Treatment IGRT - 2/2012

back to the topic at hand: "Nothing is often the best response."

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I'll be in the shop.
Age 59, 52 at DX
PSA:
4.2 10/11, 1.9 6/12, 1.2 12/12, 1.0 5/13, .6 11/13,
.7 5/14, .5 10/14, .5 4/15, .3 10/15, .3 4/16, .4 10/16, .4 5/17, .3 10/17 .3 4/18, .4 11/18
G 3+4
Stage T1C
2 out of 14 cores positive
Treatment IGRT - 2/2012

Oh man, there’s that capitalized “nothing” again! It just doesn’t seem right!🙃😮

nothing=zip=nada=null, can't include zero because zero is something.

It's interesting about somethings, they frequently are really worth nothing.

Knowledge bullies, are they from Knebraska?
Sorry Cornhusker fans, gotta have fun.
Do you know what the N on the Nebraska helmet stands for? Either Nowledge or nothing.

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My Biopsy
My PSA Curve
Previous PSA
Curve
Treatment Path
My Story

The time has come, the walrus said, to speak of many things
Of ships, and snails, and sealing wax.
Of cabbages and Kings
Of why the sea is boiling hot,
And whether pigs have wings.

(From memory, without looking for the reference. If there are errors, I apologize)

-Charles Dodson (AKA Lewis Carrol)

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Age at Diagnosis: 56
RALP on 2/17/15, BJC St. Louis, Dr. Figenshau
58.5g, G3+4, 20%, 4 quadrants involved
PSA Non-Detect since April, 2015
My Story: www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=35&m=3300024

This would seem relevant. (Oh, wait! If it's relevant, does that mean it's something, in which case it's not nothing?)

https://www.bing.com/images/search?q=our+nada+who+art+in+nada&id=a70d16fda383b9fbb03f7c2579af0dabd3c5ce0d&form=iqfrba

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Age: 73
Chronic prostatitis (age 60 on)
BPH w/ urinary obstruction, 6/2011
TURP, 7/2011
Ongoing high PSA, 7/2011-12/2011
Biopsy, 12/2011: positive 3/12 (90%, 70%, 5%)
Gleason 6(3+3), T1c
No mets, PCa likely still organ contained
IMRT w/ HT (Lupron), 4/2012-6/2012
PSAs (since post-IMRT): 0.1 or lower

Nobody could call me a fussy man,
But I do like a little bit of butter to my bread!

AA Milne

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Age at Diagnosis: 56
RALP on 2/17/15, BJC St. Louis, Dr. Figenshau
58.5g, G3+4, 20%, 4 quadrants involved
PSA Non-Detect since April, 2015
My Story: www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=35&m=3300024

In my youth under the influence of nothing really,
but that nothing seemed to be laced with something else that was really nothing.
I had my first glimpse of infinity, both of the infinitely small and infinitely complex/large.
Strange yet comforting, certainly put me square into the reality of my nothingness.

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My Biopsy
My PSA Curve
Previous PSA
Curve
Treatment Path
My Story

I heard a fly buzz - when I died. (Emily D.)

I probably will too - tinnitus.

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Part I
2015 (Age 54) PSA: 20.8
Bx: All cores G7 (4+3)
RALP & Adjuvant RT
Pathology: G8 (4+4)+5
PSA nadir: 0.1, steady increase until 2019: 64

Part II
2019, March: Lupron/Xtandi, PSA: 0.036