JkorourkeRN for husband said...
... grief and sadness and it needs to be expressed not suppressed... it s a good thing to state how you feel. I can relate somewhat after my husbands PC was diagnosed.... it could have been removed and done with, He has suffered horribly with the surgery, and is now incontinent, and impotent... express it and then determine how to let go and move forward.
I can directly relate to this, and I'm still
trying to get over what happened. Tremendous anger and remorse, on top of having lost even basic functionality. "Let go" sounds so easy. It isn't.
My wife died after a long and painful, degrading cancer fight. I was holding her at last breath, at that moment I was overwhelmed but I clearly felt her spirit feel relief and joy of escape from the body racked with pain. That is what I focus on in the bad times, it’s about her being in a better place...
So sad, yet such a touching and uplifting story. Thank you for sharing with us.
2014-15: PSA's 9, 12, 20, 25, Neg DRE's, false neg TRUS biopsy
6/16: New Uro, MRI Fusion biopsy, 6 pos Rt Base (15-40-100%) G8(4+4)
8/16: DaVinci RP, 3 foci EPE, PNI, 11 LN-, 53g, 25% Gr4, BL SVI, pT3b
1/17: Started Lupron ADT, PSA's ~.03
5/17: AMS800 implant, revised 6/17
8/17: 39 tx RapidArc IMRT (70 Gy)
1/18, 4/18, 7/18, 1/19: PSA's <0.008, T=9
2018: Dx Radiation Colitis & other weird stuff