I’ve never been on ADT. What I have experienced are feelings of unfairness (to the point of feeling cursed), no way out from long standing sufferings, anger, resentments, and hopelessness. It’s highly doubtful that there’s many (if any) anti-depressants I have not, at one time to another, tried.
Im finding, at the age of 61, that the thing that helps me more than anything I’ve tried to date, is meditation (I think it popular term for it now is “mindfulness”...although, to be honest, I’m not even sure if they’re the same thing or not). All I know is, what my perceptions and attitudes change better than anything is something that’s required by me...that I’ve never been big on...and that something is called “discipline” (to do it). So...I don’t do it every single day. Sometimes I may go a month and not do it. But, when things get bad enough, and I can remember to, and I actually do it, and I’m
open to it...it seems to almost *always* works. Some mornings...just a couple of minutes can give me a perspective that lasts...well...not *that* long...but, it lasts longer than if I don’t do it at all. Some mornings...I can find myself doing it for 15/20 minutes because...the freedom and perspective it gives me...I don’t want that to end. (But...it can linger afterwards).
I’m not talking about
sitting on the floor with legs pretzeling up. I’m talkin’ about
just sitting in a chair, and breathing, and listening, and experiencing *this moment”. I don’t know if that’s meditation...but...whatever it’s called...it brings me into this moment...and in that place...this place...my trials and sufferings (I’m not sure that word is a stretch) seems to somehow...recede.
This is in no way a recommendation to not pursue medical help...nor is it an indictment of medication. All it is is something that can be *complementary* to other sources of help.
If I did it more, I’d feel better more. It took me some experimentation to find what works for me. Read all the books, blah, blah, blah...and if that helps you to do that...GOOD!!! 👍. But...that never helped me. What helped me was/is to just begin to do it...and, somehow...I can’t even tell you how...but, somehow...I found/find a way to some relief.
When I do it.
Good luck to you.
PSA 2010 thru 2014...4.0 +/- .7
Dx 12/14 @ 56 yo...2 cores G6 <5%, 1 core G6 20%, 1 core HGPIN.
RALP 11/25/15...3+4. 3 mm G6 surgical margin, 15% involvement
(5% G4) pT2+ Decipher: non-aggressive
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