Who I am!..

Who I am!...a posit for a position...in a state of repose...with no pose that is not a pose...I sense myself comforted by weakness...a strength wrapped in forgiveness...each to the other...for ourselves...there is no other...reflections...projections...turn the screw...ignore the tape...I am measureless and so are you...

thank you for allowing me to help...Oh and never limit yourself to comfort and security...you are...in truth...if not in fact...created for more....

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gleason 9 contained stopped psa testing jan 2015 with two consecutive psa's a year apart at 0.15
surgery 10/09 only treatment...eyes wide open...no sand...gonna live til I die...not the reverse forgive my virtues as well as my sins...

I thought he left? 🙂

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Part I
2015 (Age 54) PSA: 20.8
Bx: All cores G7 (4+3)
RALP & Adjuvant RT
Pathology: G8 (4+4)+5
PSA nadir: 0.1, steady increase until 2019: 64.13

Part II
2019, March: Lupron/Xtandi, PSA: 1 month: 0.126; 3 months: 0.036; 6 months: <0.02

Hey logo...missed you.

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b 1950, 2012 PSA=11, 12/12 cores +. DVRP 12/27/12. 36 g, 35% PCa,EC ext., SV+,+ marg T3bX, G7(4+3). 2 week post-RP PSA=0.2, Firmagon ADT. Cont @ 3 mo, EBRT 70 Gy/40 ses. Last 6 mo. Eligard 10/14. 4/15 T=2.2, PSA<.02. 10/16 T=204, PSA=.08, 2/17 PSA=.13, 3/17 T=307 PSA=.19, 4/17 PSA=.21, 4/18 PSA=.65 6/18 PSA=1.15 8/18 PSA=1.15 11/18 PSA=1.58 1/19 PSA=1.67 3/19 PSA=2.12 8/19 PSA=2.9 10/19 PSA=3.3

Logo!

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Age 58, Diagnosed at 51
PSA 9.6, Gleason: 9 (5+4), three 7s (3+4)
Chose triple play of HDR brachy, IMRT and HT (Casodex, Lupron and Zytiga)
Completed HT (18 months) in April 2014
3/19: PSA = 0.04

What 81gyGUY SAID.
WE MISS YOU

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I am not a doctor, just another guy without a prostate
Dx Age 64 Nov 2014, PSA 4.3
BX 3 of 12 cores positive original pathology G6
RALP with Dr Ash Tewari Jan 6, 2015
Post surgical pathology G7 (3+4), - ECE, - Margins, -LN, -SV (+ frozen section apex converted to negative)
PSA @ 6 weeks 2/15, .<02, remained <0.02 until January 2017, .02, repeat Feb 2017, still .02. May 2017-.033, August 2017- .033 November .046, March 2018 .060. June 2018 .068, July 2018 - .082, August 2018, .078, August 2018 - .08 Start ADT. Sept 2018 Start SRT
Sept 2018 thru November 2018 – T = 4, PSA = <.05
Decipher test, low risk, .37 score
My story.... tinyurl.com/qgyu3xq

Ya know gents and ladies when Glen Campbell was in his last days of alzimers and his music was basically bang and clang without the twang...I use that phrase with respect and artistic intent to juxta su pose..the hi and lows of his life...what I mean by that is that even as he went thru his maddening decline...his "self" wrote and sang a song about his then present wife...{more likely in his state of mind all of his loves}...it was something to the effect of...I will never miss you...punctuated by the counter intuitive line....My aim is to good...well as the guy with the parrot used to say ...back in the day....That's the Name of That Tune...I appreciate ALL the youse in all your own selves...willy nilly...silly billys…

I would be re miss not to mention IT and his quest as he...like us all..try to navigate such a wondrous passage of being

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gleason 9 contained stopped psa testing jan 2015 with two consecutive psa's a year apart at 0.15
surgery 10/09 only treatment...eyes wide open...no sand...gonna live til I die...not the reverse forgive my virtues as well as my sins...

Post Edited (logoslidat) : 11/2/2019 11:03:30 AM (GMT-6)

For Logo, et all, taking your advice, a little out of comfort zone, but here goes:

I am, as life is, definitely in ebb and flo, like the ocean, touching hearts sometimes, missing the mark sometimes. Life bounces around, like beads of water sent from a quiet wave, a wave that rolls out the beads and spray into..infinity. Often I lie awake, dreaming and envisioning and waiting, for water falling over water, flowing endlessly, and believing another wave will rock and roll me again with its mystical Majesty.
Winging it.(never been a surfer, but enjoy watching waves)

Post Edited (Wings of Eagles) : 11/5/2019 1:51:17 PM (GMT-7)

“Glad you are still with us on this side of the grass!”

Lol. Hadn’t heard that one before. I assume you mean above it, rather than below.

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Part I
2015 (Age 54) PSA: 20.8
Bx: All cores G7 (4+3)
RALP & Adjuvant RT
Pathology: G8 (4+4)+5
PSA nadir: 0.1, steady increase until 2019: 64.13

Part II
2019, March: Lupron/Xtandi, PSA: 1 month: 0.126; 3 months: 0.036; 6 months: <0.02

Wings its all Carnegie Hall...never stop living and wondering...its habit forming


Grass...uh...what cha talking bout willis grass on roof carpets of neighbors gardens one/tother

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gleason 9 contained stopped psa testing jan 2015 with two consecutive psa's a year apart at 0.15
surgery 10/09 only treatment...eyes wide open...no sand...gonna live til I die...not the reverse forgive my virtues as well as my sins...

Which reminds me of a slang clearance we used to give pilots (the regulars} instead of a landing clearance..."you got the nod...hit the sod "...that along with "freak out" when you were assigning a frequency change and of course linda rondstats "blew bayou" when we changed the sequence for an irratating pilot....ah...it brings tears to me eyes...

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gleason 9 contained stopped psa testing jan 2015 with two consecutive psa's a year apart at 0.15
surgery 10/09 only treatment...eyes wide open...no sand...gonna live til I die...not the reverse forgive my virtues as well as my sins...